OBSERVATIONS & LESSONS A YEAR LATER.
14 March 2021 by Phoenix Boulay
A year ago on March 13th, I just wanted to go home after work, but I ran into friends at the pub, and we ended up going to the Midway. People were starting to be afraid of the mysterious new “virus”, and all the bands had canceled, but the Mystical Misfits stepped up and played again. My friends I went with didn’t stay long, but I was one of only about 30 or 40 people that danced all night, and when the band ran out of songs, a smaller group of us just hung out and drank till closing. It was really a special night. I had good, meaningful conversations with friends and strangers. But it was the last time I went dancing, and I’ve been really angry, upset and frustrated about that for a long time. Dancing was not just fun and good exercise, but a way to decompress, lighten up and take a break from the intensity of the world. My little joke is like “Yeah, they’ve outlawed dancing..” as I roll my eyes.
So here I was on March 13th again, having worked all afternoon and gone to do an errand, and probably lingered too long browsing at the store, because I’ve barely been in a store for the past year. It took a while to get back to JP. I realized I hadn’t really had what you would call a meal all day, because I was too busy working or didn’t really feel hungry.
When I got close to home, I stopped at the pub, sat alone at a small table as I usually do, because I just wanted to get off my feet and have a little bite and a drink. It was lively, with great tunes from the 60’s and 70’s playing. In walked a friend I hadn’t seen in a long time, probably not since my birthday 2 Decembers ago when I ran into him at another pub where our friends’ bands were playing. He had some catching up to do with people out on the patio, but eventually he came and sat with me, and we caught up. Much later, we realized and acknowledged what bonds us as pals, though I seldom see him. It is feeling understood, and accepted in our imperfection, without judgment.
I’ll tell you, the place was happening, the music was loud and people were singing along and laughing. People started joking and goofiing around, twerking for laughs and dancing. Eventually, I got up and danced a bit too. It was fun even just sitting and singing along with the words and goofing around. I was thinking, “Wow, I haven’t had fun in so long, and I haven’t danced in a damn year, and you know me, you know how much I love to dance!” It felt like FREEDOM! (except for the mandatory masks.)
My friend reminded me that even though for us, these moments are rare, it’s what matters, not all the noise out there in the world. He’s right. I get caught up in the noise. What I like to call anti-social networking, trying to bring awareness about things that challenge not only our way of life, but our very existence. But you can’t force people into awakening. We are each on our own journey, in that respect. Remember to live and enjoy today.
There were other friends I was happy to see, but they kept to themselves a lot and brought a lot of fear in with them and tried to push it on us. The guy interrupted every conversation I tried to have with the gal, telling her it isn’t safe to socialize. It was kind of sad to realize people you wouldn’t expect are totally operating out of fear, instead of out of love, and even using the official narrative nonsensical propaganda talking points that they believe is the truth, and then tried to push that narrative on us. Great people, but If that’s how you really feel, then you should be staying at home, rather than going out trying to infect other people with your fear-based thought virus, and shunning friends because fear has closed your heart. Common sense precautions are one thing; we all take them. But letting your imagination fuel your fear is another. Worry is like sending a negative prayer to the universe. Learn to be fearless.
This is where we are going to see more of a splitting off of worlds, between the nano-bot thought virus crowd who run on a fear agenda pushed by those in power, always seeking outside validation …and those who embrace their sovereignty, make magic, trust their intuition and co-creative ability, consider a myriad of information and sit with it in quiet contemplation. The rEvolution is within. Each person must decide for themselves how to navigate uncertainty. Will you align with fear and the doomsday scenario, or will you align with love and the emerging new communities of healers and visionaries? What kind of world do you wish to live in? Choose wisely.
Originally posted on Facebook, March 14, 2021
[I chose this image because of the lighthouse in the distance, as seen from Hull, MA. To me, lighthouses represent that hope is on the horizon. Even though it was taken from land, the vast, sandy beach and relatively calm water can represent that even if we feel alone, our journey need not feel perilous. Calming the mind can quell subconscious fears.]