Reflections on Light and Shadow

Reflections on Light and Shadow by Phoenix Boulay
| Seer, Seeker, Sayer Sage


There is a common theme in some reflections I made this evening in the form of fb comments, that were inspired by a post by Nova Biscotti, who touches on several subjects that are inter-related. I was also affected by the downturn in mood and communication breakdown between me and my mother on this traditional family holiday of Thanksgiving.


Yes I’m grateful to have my parents alive and to be able to spend time with them but good Lord hold the politics please just give me more love, some more ice cream and blueberry pie!


Nova says “Lightwarriors tend to focus more on ‘shedding light on that which is dark’, while lightworkers wish to increase the light which is already present.”


So apparently I am BOTH a Lightworker AND a Lightwarrior. An Empath, as well, which makes navigating a path of peace more challenging. I have been calm and at peace lately, but the dysfunctional family dynamic really got to me today, and did the chimera proud, alas.


Between dismissive and “I don’t care!” statements, pushing unsolicited opinions on others, cutting off any attempt at offering an enlightening perspective, my mother has done a number on me yet again. There must be reason why I was born into a family that bullied and crushed my spirit much of my life (and if I call them on it as an adult , I’m told to stop being a victim, and if I say I’m not being a victim, I am speaking up for myself, I am dismissed and told to “drop it, we’re done talking about that” (as long as they had their say).

It really pains me, but the worst part is she drags me down into this combat with her, as slings and arrows flew, which is toxic, extremely distressing, and used to break my heart. It’s all so unnecessary. I brought my best self to the table, I left hurt and angry, eschewing any further engagement of substance. I wonder how many of us tread lightly with family, talking only about the rain or the meal. Sound familiar?

I’ve seen this dynamic play out with friends and strangers. When something is unhealed in us, we tend to attract more situations and people that allow us to play out that dynamic again.

Sure, at times, I will call out those I feel need calling out, I feel a moral obligation to do so. But I don’t want to toughen up or be hard, I want peace. I want communication. I want understanding. I want to be soft and playful and free to express myself from the heart. Is that asking too much?

I beat my mother at Gin Rummy one Christmas, at game after game, though I had seldom ever played in my life. She had a fit, ending the game by throwing the cards up into the air and storming off.Β  And I think there’s something in there, when somebody who cannot be a gracious loser is attracted to tough bullies, someone who thinks they are going to easily solve the country’s problems.

As far as the election goes, I think the Electoral College clearly is obsolete when somebody can have over two million more votes and still lose. Something’s wrong with this picture. And of course, the party who will be in power will have no incentive to change that.

However, one of the deeper problems is election fraud, and there should be an automatic recount of every election, all facts and figures should be double-checked for it to be fair to everyone… for this is how a democracy works. There should be checks and balances in place, and clearly they are not –not anymore. Our beloved alternative candidate who stirred many hearts got left out in the cold, it was unfair to him that the questionable situation was not halted and investigated on the spot.

We’re now going into uncharted territory. We are in a paradigm shift. It’s going to shake up reality for a lot of people and there will always be something we like and something we loathe, so I think we just have to stay calm try to work towards understanding, communication and making the best of a bad situation, but also learning to tap into our creative problem-solving ability. This is because I do think we’re smart, and we humans have the ability to solve all the problems that we’ve created on this planet. This time, we need to do it from the heartspace, not the mind.

Yes I’m among those that believe our Galactic family is coming, but they’re not coming to save us, they are coming to help us save ourselves! What an amazing time to be alive!Β  That’s what I want to focus on.

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  1. Kelly M. Beard also has some insights that resonate:

    11/24 ~ Jupiter (your story) ~square~ Pluto (transformation):

    These two energies are potent by themselves, but when challenging each other like this, permanent change is underway. Squares push you “out of comfort zone – in to – new territory”, that, essentially, you could not get to on your own as you need the friction or the push. Keep your own motivations pure to avoid getting hurt by the karmic debris swirling nearby, know your own Truth & Story and allow what’s no longer true to fade, while embracing a renewed sense of purpose and dedication to something larger than you. Pluto is the Purifier and Jupiter represents justice and laws and is a social planet, so look for changes in government and revelations of the movements and machinations that are covert or hidden from the public view. There is a cleansing happening as we speak. It is time to question everything ~ especially your own belief systems. Reflect to see if what you hold as Truth is still adequate or even accurate. This energy is best for working toward positive change and restoring clean power structures within and out in the world, and helping the individual transform their personal story considerably.

    11/25 ~ Venus (love, finances & relationships) ~conjunct~ Pluto (purification & transformation):

    This energy supports a new beginning in your personal life. Some aspect of your values & priorities has shifted or run its natural course and this is a time to move in a new direction, if only moving to your own next level (with love, finances or relationships). Pluto adds intensity to the mix, for better or worse, but also grants access to profound levels of connection with those you are in alignment with on a Soul-level. This is the ultimate support for the power of love to transform ALL. Because your values and priorities are shifting, relationships must also undergo a similar adjustment (when you change, everyone around you changes or goes away). Beware of value differences that can cause power struggles which are unproductive, that’s ego distracting you from the opportunity to release some dead weight and move into the new with more ease & grace. Try to create circumstances that are win/win, and mutually beneficial, this will allow the relationship to evolve, rather than revolve back into the new cycle and thus, repeating.

    11/25 ~ Venus (love, finances & relationships) ~square~ Jupiter (expansion & consciousness):

    This energy is a happy-go-lucky kind of energy that doesn’t really want to be bothered with the mundane, however, you must not allow that passing energy to get you so off track that it costs you more than it is worth. If you don’t have any pressing obligations, then this will be a fun, relaxing time, possibly with friends having some fun. However, if you have work to do, make sure it gets done first so you can truly enjoy yourself without the worry of the pile being bigger when you return. Watch the excesses as well, food, drink and/or spending. On a deeper level, you may have to make some adjustments in your relationships or finances. Jupiter always reveals the excess or where we make things ‘bigger’ (consciously or not). This activation usually helps us realign our true priorities with our grandest vision for the future.”


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